Silencing my every busy mind is my biggest challenge. To improve with any skill, i know it takes practice... consistent practice. I have not been consistent in meditation - even knowing how great i feel when i make the time to meditate... i still will chose to sleep in, or choose to do something else... i need to dedicate myself to this practice - the benefits will be amazing... i know this. I liken my mind to a computer and have you ever clicked on the wrong webpage and were assaulted with a million pop up windows? you minimize one... another pops up - you close that one - and the one you minimized earlier comes back up? yeh... that is me. Until I can address these popups... my mind does not rest... it is not so much about worry or stress about things as it is ideas... lists... thinking about so many things...
I feel a very deep desire to deepen my spirituality and this is why I am on this journey. I feel a deep calling to help people - and I cannot get to that place until I help myself. I am taking steps and doing the hard work to be at peace inside and to deepen my own personal spirituality. I am a natural born teacher - and there is a higher purpose for me out there and I am excited to find it!
Why, is being able to multi task a skill we are proud of? my whole professional career has been about being able to multi task and do 10 things at once.. and honestly, in crunch time, i thrive... and get things done! I am known for this... however - i have a deep longing for a slower pace. to be in the NOW and feel and experience life with all my senses.. when I close my eyes - I see myself relaxed, calm and helping people heal from emotional wounds, i see myself doing yoga, I see myself communicating on a deep level spiritually. I see myself not bombarded with so much stimuli - i have started down this path. I see myself waking up in the morning thanking a higher power for this wonderful life. I see myself having a morning drink (hot water w. lemon for me) with hottie husband and gazing into eyes, thankful for our life. I don't see myself on the computer every day, fighting negative energy in a cut throat environment any more...It will be a big shift to change - but I am committed to getting there. It is the opposite of my life now - the life of a professional Project Manager, Mom, photographer , etc...
I want to help people - I want to be a light for them, I want to feel the warmth of spiritual energy and true unconditional love and share that with those that need it so desperately - now how do i get there... that is my journey
We need to stop the glorification of busy! i don't even need to elaborate.. you know what this means and why...
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